Horizon

A most selfless act that can be performed…

In this cruel world of selfish and realistic people, we often do something in order to gain something to our advantage. Cheats, lies, treason, betrayal, crime…

I assume that it’s justified to say that humanity is deteriorating.

However, there is a single act which remains to be honoured by human kind: SACRIFICE.

One could give away something that is treasured for the benefit or welfare of another. How could one perform such a saintly act? I wonder what’s in his or her mind when one could go to that extent for someone else…

I guess there could only be one reason for that: LOVE.

Again… It seems that I’ll always come down to this subject whenever I try to discuss an issue. After all, humanity may only survive because of its existence.

Back to sacrifice, I would first like to give credit to all the loving parents on Earth. If there is anyone who would sacrifice, it is THEM. Once we are born, they love and care for us whole-heartedly. (Forget about those heartless ones who leave their child for what-so-ever reason as they are not worthy to be identified as "parents".)

It is always said that parents love their children much more than their children loving them. I personally agree to it without any doubt. No matter how hard I try, I never feel that I’m doing enough. While their love fills the seven seas, mine barely sustain a stream.

How about one who sacrifice for someone whom he or she doesn’t even know? Take an example of someone who try to save a child who is crossing a busy road alone and almost got knocked down by a vehicle. Do we have to think before we act then? Do we have to consider the safety of our very ownselves when performing such an act?

What we need is just a tiniest bit of compassion to make a sacrifice as such…

Is being alone lonely? I never knew what does "loneliness" mean, or in fact I enjoy being alone to some extent. I don’t mind being alone, at least not at home. I’m blessed with television, computer, books, music, bed, food… How could I be possibly lonely? Or was I? Maybe, I didn’t even notice that I was lonely.

However, things change… Since I’ve joined Edmat camp, I’ve learnt the meaning of "loneliness". How is that possible? Don’t ask me. The feeling just emerged out of nowhere. I begin to feel "lonely" (or maybe it’s just "bored"?) at home. However, there are of course my family members around me. So, is it "bored" or "lonely"?

So, how can we differentiate "boredom" and "loneliness"? Sometimes when I am chatting with a group of friends or rather be in a group of chatty friends, I feel that I can’t actually pay attention to them. My mind tends to drift away on its own. Then, I would prefer to leave to be alone. Am I bored then? I couldn’t be lonely with my friends around me, can I?

Are we bored when we’ve nothing to do or to be look forward to? Are we lonely when we do not have people around us? Then, busy people definitely won’t be bored or lonely. If it’s so, all we need to do is to keep ourselves busy…

A word that all would be most happy to avoid.

"Only if" and "should have" together have been said to make the saddest phrases present. "Only if I’ve known this…" " I should have done that…" They both speak of regrettable events which have had happened and could not be undone.

History repeats itself…

When I was in lower secondary, I’ve been told that one of the reasons we have History lessons in school is to learn from history. All of us learn from our past experience, for example we learn from mistakes. However, there is always something that we will never learn. In spite of making the same mistake over and over again…

Why?

Aren’t humans rational beings that are given with the ability to think? Then, why are we repeating our mistakes? And in the end, we hung our head low, brooding over the past, regretting what we have done…

But who doesn’t make mistakes? Who wouldn’t have regrets? It is just part and parcel of life. Since we can’t learn to eradicate it from life, we just have to accept it.

As my post has already deviated from its title, I’ve decided to change the title to "Studies…" instead. This post is actually dedicated to all my friends who are studying.

Finals are approaching everywhere, I guess. My final is coming in bout one month too. Hence, I have something to tell about studying (for exams, especially…)

I find that I prefer to play than to study. But why do I have to study if it bores me? Maybe, it’s because it secures my future happiness. But who knows bout the future? One very popular question that some like to ask is: Did Bill Gates go to university? They mean that not excelling in academic field doesn’t make one a failure. Then, I would like to ask: Does wealth guarantee happiness then? So, should I study?

Actually who would know if we were to achieve success, happiness, wealth (and what-so-ever that we are wishing for) in future? We can’t even be sure than we are still alive tomorrow, right? In that case, why must we put unnecessary burden, stress and pressure on ourselves? I personally think that life is meant to be beautiful (in spite of all the cruel realities happening whole wide world).

Hence, we should try to lead a happy life.

I am not discouraging anyone from studying hard (for exams, their "future" and etc) but shouldn’t we give priority to our very own welfare and happiness? At least, we don’t have to torture our bodies (and mind) by burning oil till dawn. Why must we go through all that just for some words on a piece of processed and treated cellulose?

Do what we can. Trying our best is enough. Don’t overdo things. Studying itself should not be an agony. Knowledge is definitely a valuable asset to everyone. However, don’t be affected by the PERCEPTION of the society. Don’t lose yourself. Be clear of what you want, not what others expect you to have.

Truth VS Perception

As far as I understood, perception is what we think of a subject. And truth, is a subject well-known and recognized. Or truth itself is the fact. So, what if we think that something is true while others think it isn’t. When is a perception a truth? When the majority thinks that something is true, is it the truth? Who define that it is the truth? The intellectuals? Political leaders? Or maybe just you and I?

So, is life about the truth or it’s just our perception? So, as long as we think something is right, THAT is the truth. Agree?

"SA or NA?"

A frequent question asked since the first day I stepped into my uni. Funny… Is it important? By the way, for those who are yet to know what are "SA" and "NA", "SA" is the short form of "still available" while "NA" means "not available".

Available, ei? Is that equivalent to "single"? Em…

In western countries, boy-girl relationships start even in their teens (or even childhood; YIKES!). But I don’t think that statement is justified as nowadays we’ve that kind of situations all over the world, i believe. Being conservative, I could only frown as I read and listen to these stories. Totally outrageous, if you ask my opinion.

What is the main reason of building this boy-girl relationship? Love? Nonsense… Don’t they have their own parents to love? Can’t they just love their friends? Why must they get themselves a specific person of opposite sex to be loved?
Back to logical deductions… From where did these teens learn bout this boy-girl relationship? Their parents? Friends? TV programmes?

However even in the past, there were childhood marriages, arranged by the parents of the couple. But I assume those are only decisions of their parents. Could it be possible that those children fell in love with each other and asked their parents to arrange for their marriage?

So, how bout in the present? Do teenagers fall in love? Maybe they do but I prefer to call that as "crush" or "puppy-love". (But I wonder why is it puppy. Why not kittens? Maybe it’s because dogs are man’s best friend.)

Forget bout teens as I’m already in a university. How bout undergrads? So, do we fall in love? I’ve seen couples strolling around, hand-in-hand, arm-in-arm and etc etc. I wonder what are they thinking while they are walking. Their future, marriage, career, or just their coming exams?

Why do they get along then? They are in love with each other? If that’s the reason, I have to question "LOVE" (which I don’t think I’m capable of doing now). Any other reasons?

Or, maybe they just need someone to talk or share their feelings with. After all, we can’t live alone in this world (at least not anyone I know can). Skipping the root, I came to the fruit. I wonder how many of them will actually get married…

For those who are yet to know, I’ve been admitted into Universiti Malaya. I’m in the Engineering Faculty, Department of Biomedical Engineering. After such a long time dreaming, at last I’ve reached the another new stage in my life. I’ve been awaiting for changes in my life. Secondary school seems starting to bore me sometime ago. I felt childish there. I acted according to my wish, following my will all the time. It’s the time to grow.

Grow… A basic biological process that every living thing undergoes. Yet, in my opinion, it contains much more meanings to us. When we grow, we change physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically and etc etc… And the word emphasized here is CHANGE.

Why do things have to change? Isn’t it great that things continue to stay the way they are forever and ever eternally? And for those who think so, I could easily guess that they are very lucky people for they must be having whatever they wish for at this moment. However there are much more people out there who wish for changes to take place: beggars, orphans, refugees…

And there was once upon a time when a place named Never-land exists in the imagination of children where people don’t grow old… Is that what we want?

Things are pron ed to change. The Second Law of Thermodynamics states that the disorder in an isolated system tends to increase. Whatever it is, we all know that changes take place and we grow over time.

My nick : Horizon

It happened once upon the time when I was 18. I remember it was after SPM. We organised a trip to Langkawi. For those who were there, I’m sure all of you still remember the joy we had there. Island hopping was one of the exciting and interesting activities I had back there (coz that was my 1st time on a speed boat; unfortunately, I grew tired of it now).

While I was on the boat, I had a good view of the ‘Horizon’. A straight line, it is, dividing the sky and the ocean. It’s far yet it’s always visible. And though it’s visible, it’s unreachable. It used to be a mystery to our ancestors: where does it lead to? what lies beyond it? is Earth a flat platform and we’ll drop into space if we go beyond the horizon? And ‘Horizon’ is also the place where the rainbow ends, where the pot of golds is said to lie, where the Sun wakes up from in the dawn and where it lies down at dusk.

At this moment, ‘Horizon’ is just a line that artists paint on their drawings. It has lost its fantasies…